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30 August 2006 @ 08:38 pm
Challenge #2: Crazy by Gnarls Barkley  
Anger Management

Sometimes I worry about the anger that lives inside me. Usually it's buried pretty deep, and I can control it. But sometimes...sometimes it rises up and I do something I regret later. I've always had a temper, and sometimes it's mixed with just a little more impulsiveness than is healthy. And then I do something that I know is not a good idea, even though it seems like it at the time.

"I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase"


Right now I'm thinking of the time I punched that guy at school. The mutant hater. I didn't even think about doing it - he made me so angry, and before I knew it he was on the floor, and I felt a little better. Then his buddies got involved, and I felt a lot better by the time that was over.

"And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch"


I regretted it later. Not because of what I did, but because of what it said about me. (And because I then got stuck in anger management counseling.) All the years of training, all that effort to control my powers, and I couldn't even hold it together when some dumb frat boy made some anti-mutant remarks. As if it was the first time I had ever heard anything like that.

"You really think you're in control"


Sometimes I wonder if we are going about this the wrong way. Trying to help people, to make them see that we aren't so different from them, and that all mutants aren't the same. Hey guys, mutant =/= bad. There's a very small part of me that thinks we should just live our lives and use our powers to defend ourselves when necessary. It's that small angry part that whispers, "They will always hate you."

"My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done"


But then what? Where would this world be if those who were able to didn't stand up and defend it?

I always wanted to be a hero. And now I know I've seen too much to back down, to stand aside and just let things happen, if there's something I can do.

"I just knew too much"


But that still doesn't stop that little voice. Maybe I'm crazy.

"Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably"


I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
And so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly [radio version]
probably [album version]

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice

Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably


Muse: Kitty Pryde
Fandom: X-Men
Word Count: 342
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